| hello xanga. it's been awhile. oh how i've missed pouring my heart out. wells no not really. got a journal for that. but weblogs are nice. so i'm here for a casual update on life. my misadventures.
things have been just peachy i guess. smoke, party, drink, and chill. everyday sorta feels like a weekend. it's kindof bad but eh. it's whatever. i'm just happy to be able to see my friends who were all away for college or too busy with college. in other news. i actually got off my ass and went to grab an application for rite aid and since i was already out. i went and grabbed that damn newbury comics application too. probably try applying for af also. as for my love life. it's pretty much non-existent. i've met a few pretty awesome individuals. but nothing that really catches my eye. a fling here and a fling there. maybe it's just i'm not ready for another wild relationship. OH! and i've got a new baby pitbull. it's fucking awesome!!!!!!!! my niece named it boogie lol. and it's a boy. nice to have a male dog in the house now.
highlight of this month:
i was at a party in lynn like 2 weeks ago. and everything was all fine and dandy. girls dancing. booze still flowing. good music. then bam. one of my homeboy's homeboy bumps into a guy he doesn't like and drama starts. a big arguements ensues and girls get involved. we decide to leave but then an even bigger arguement happens at the door even though the drama was resolved. blahblahblah people yelling blahblahblah. bam someone pulls out a gun. then one of my friends pulls out a gun. then another arguement starts about pulling the triggers. and suddenly there was peace. and we all left like nothing happened. it was a rather retarded moment.
let down of this month:
i've failed to live up to my own goals and expectations.
and i'm gonna end this entry with something a couple of my friends been saying.
"no new years resolutions this time. just change."
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| fck it! i give up. too much writing and my file got deleted! 08 has been a good year. wild. and fun. |
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| 448 am. drank myself into oblivion. gg huy. |
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| 5:38 in the am and I'm still awake. semi-buzzed. and my mind racing. stupid mind. stupid heart. stupid girls. ugh
so. here is an update for the world. I'm not dead. most definitely alive. tad bit cold. both physically and emotionally. but alive none the less.
so for the past few weeks i've been caught up over a girl. that i still do feel for even though it's been over for awhile now. heart looking like it came out of a blender. but eh. i'm still breathing. it still brings a couple problems up for me though. like my binge drinking.... wells not really binge. just about 3-4 times a week. then comes the problem with my sleep cycle. i've been failing to sleep everynight till at least 5-7am. and today i think it's gonna be 7. my biggest problem is staring at my phone. that and thinking about her. i tend not to give into the urge of texting her. which works. but i end up deep in thought about the things she's doing haha. hopeless. then theres the problem of me always talking about her. that ties in with the fact that i think about her. but ok enough about females time to move on to talking about life.
so life's been awfully weird when i'm not paying attention to things about HER. i've lost interest in alot of things. my habit of watching the clouds has become very unfrequent. my social life is starting to come back at least. it's nice to see all the friends during vacation. i've chilled with almost all my friends. those in college. the "street" kids. the fathers and mothers lol. even the alcoholics and druggies!!! wooooo. this whole week was dedicated to the friends. didn't spend time at home much. other than hanging with the druggies. them doods needa chill with fishbowling my room. shopping with rose on monday. secret santa exchange thing on tuesday with the culprits and them lunchkidz(college kids). big sleep over on wednesday. crazy ass fcking night lol. then i ate dimsum with them on christmas morning. drank with the homies(streetkids/fathers/mothers) during the night. and today! i'm going to get drunk i think. fcking love my friends lol. i was gonna see her yesterday too. but when she was at my house i was out and my phone was in my friends purse when she called. kinda sucked but i didn't finish her card anyways. so i guess it's fine.
i dont really know what else to say but wish everyone a good 09. i'll come and post something up about 09 and everyone later this week. or maybe next. o.o
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| so. i'm back to being the boy with the mask. o.o
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